Annoyed

I must admit I am slightly annoyed at people who smoke and drink who will put their cigarettes, alcohol and in some cases drugs (cannabis) before food, electricity and gas.

I did smoke myself up till January of this year. One week it was really cold and I was faced with the choice of putting gas on my meter or buying cigarettes. I made the logical choice for my children and me and bought the gas so we could have heating. From then I have not smoked.

Yet I have a friend who has children who will go without gas, electric and food, making her children do the same just so she can buy cigarettes. I heard her making arrangements to buy cannabis BEFORE going food shopping for her family.

When I approached her about this, she said she knew she should not put her cigarettes and cannabis first and had not thought of it that way.

How can a mother allow her family to go without when she could so easily give up the cigarettes and give them more. She would have more money to buy more food, and as a side benefit be healthier?

I cannot understand the mentality of these people, when I was put in the same position to choose, it was a no brainer, not hard, took no thinking, I just quit...

Healthy Food???

Well I thought this would be easy to do, you know eat healthy and lose weight become fit and healthy. WRONG!!!

There is so much information about food, so many misleading comments made, so many companies wanting to make money from you.

So far I have found out Sugar is bad, fat is bad, carbohydrate is bad, too much meat is bad, veg is good and so is fruit as long as pesticides and fertilisers have not been used.


Then there is the fact they are not as tasty cos they have been grown to order in hothouses, then the Supermarkets wasting loads cos they do not look good enough.

Then there are the diets...
Low Fat, High fibre, protein, carb free, the list is endless, but don't forget exercise...
Is that 30 mins a day or interval training or spinning or classes or yoga, pilates or more?

This is more confusing than I anticipated, then I have to be careful not to slip back into my Anorexia ways, but then I am tempted to be Pro Ana cos its what I know.

The quest continues....

Latest Obsession

I am responding well to my treatment for Anxiety, depression and panic attacks. The new meds I was given seem to be working a treat, I have had the dosage upped by the Doctor but they seem to be working well.

So now instead of obsessing about my weight and getting depressed even more, then comfort eating I have decided to eat a healthier diet permanently. So out have gone all the processed foods all the time and in has come more fresh fruit and veg.

This has lead me to start researching about all the additives and preservatives in food.

I have been learning an awful lot and am preparing some more blogs on each topic as I think they are very interesting and am enjoying the research. I hope to do the first topic next week, till then, have a wonderful time and enjoy yourself.

Madeleine McCann

I do hope this girl is alive and well, if anyone has seen her then please do contact the police and let them know.

I do not want to offend anyone with my views and must say I do have questions related to Madeleine McCann's disappearance.

From the reports over the years we are lead to believe that Madeleine along with her brother and sister were left alone in the holiday apartment asleep. They were checked by their father and he was chatting outside so the front door of the apartment was not an option as to the entry and exit of the alleged abductor. There was also disputes as to whether the window was a viable entrance and exit for the alleged abductor. There are also rumours as to whether cadaver dogs detected the scent of Madeleine on various items including her stuffed toy. Plus the rumours of Blood, DNA evidence in the boot of the hire car.

I myself am a mother, living in the UK. One question I have is why did social services not prosecute the McCann's for neglect? I am sure the authorities would have no hesitation of removing my remaining children and accusing me of neglect if I left 3 children under 5 alone while I was in a Tapas bar.

I have in the past experienced the way social services conduct enquiries, which leads me to ask how the McCann's have been able to avoid the confidentiality clause the authority place you under?

Now it was reported Mrs McCann was finding Madeleine's behaviour to be attention seeking after the twins were born, so why would an abductor steal a toddler when a baby was there? Would it not make more sense that a baby would be easier to pass off than an older child? Would Madeleine not wake up and kick up fuss when a stranger had hold of her? This is considering the McCann's stated Madeleine had been attention seeking.

Now when the investigation into her disappearance was ongoing why were the McCann's bothered by what their family and the press would say? Surely the only thing on your mind would be the safe return of your child.

Why did they feel the need to hire expensive legal teams and why have they made money under the guise of a charity? They have now written a book that they are going to profit from.

From information in the public domain I have noticed that when opinion did not match the McCann's clear disputes with no substantial evidence were made and possible law suits followed from the McCann camp.

It seems now 5 years on more people are questioning what really happened on that fateful night when Madeleine disappeared and are not accepting what they are being told.

I do hope Madeleine is alive, but that opens up more questions.

If she is found, what happens if she does not remember the McCanns?

What if she is happy and wants to stay where she is?

Would it be fair to remove her from a family that she knows and put her with one she does not know?

This is assuming she is safe and well.

If on the other hand Madeleine did die, whether it be by accident or murder, then I hope the persons responsible for the death and concealment for the last 5 years are brought to justice.

I hope the British Review will answer all the questions I and many others have.

Somebody needs to be held accountable for the disappearance of that little girl, whether it is "alleged accident", "alleged murder" or "alleged abduction"...

I am stating an opinion, not intending to upset or offend anyone, should anyone feel upset or offended then I do apologise.

Lied to

I don't know about you, but I am sick of those near and dear to me lying to me. Seems they think its ok to lie and kick off when they get found out.
I seem to spend all my life being lied to, shouted at or being told how bad or useless I am...


THEN THEY WONDER WHY I HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS....

Sorry

Sorry I have neglected my blog recently, I have had a bad time with my mental health and weight, so from today I am going to be writing about how exercise (moderate, walking the dog for a couple of hours), and healthy diet is going to help me lose weight and feel mentally healthy. 
I am also going to be commenting on the counselling sessions I signed up for too


Till later bye


am off to eat a handful of lettuce and a tomato before I venture out in the cold and wet to go to the beach

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